161. MATAMAYA'S DREAM

(Credits & appreciation to the owner of this picture)

You, 

who dare turned up in my dream

and wrecked my night away, 

had a sneak peek at my innermost desire, 

only to steal my precious minutes. 

You,

who dare to ensnare my soul

and lead it astray,

like the wily Serpent of old,

only to taint my canvas of dream.

You,

who came from the dark recess

of a tumultuous mind,

have no business of meddling

in my thoughts and in my plans.

You,

who came uninvited,

must leave quietly by

and stay away forever 

from my slumber or my dreams.......

- © M@t@Maya, 01 February 2016

160. DEAR HEART - GET UP AND EXPLORE THE WORLD

(Credits & appreciation to the owner of this picture)

Oh you stupid grieving heart!

What did you expect?

For him to change?

For him to beg?

For he knows not

The meaning of true love

Nor the idea of sharing

He has a stone heart!

Stop fooling yourself

You stupid pathetic heart

Pick yourself up!

And take that first stride

Get out and explore

The world out there is yours

Leave the past behind

And live your life anew!

Beat strong again dear heart

Fill your emptiness with joy

Take charge of your life

And love will come to you

Fly out of your cage
Fly high and far
Leave your sadness behind
And aim for the stars

- © M@t@Maya, 10 August 2015

159. A BIRD IN A CAGE

(Credits & appreciation to the owner of this picture)

Who could have known

that there's a bird

living inside

a gilded cage

Who could have thought

a woman so beautiful

having most things

 is lonely and sad

Who could have imagined

someone so selfless

living a boring life

of total sacrifice

Who could have chanced upon

one time a maiden so happy

now turned angry

unappreciated

If only they know the plight

of a woman once highly

loved and appreciated

 now a bird in a cage

If only they know....

- © M@t@Maya, 10 August 2015

158. MY BLUE VALENTINE'S DAY

(Credits and appreciation to the owner of this picture)

Today's got to be the bluest day for me
A day when lovers exchange their promises and love
Of red roses, chocolates, cupcakes and candy
Of requests for blessings from God above

Where ever I go RED colors the walls and places
Roses blooms line the five-foot way
Beauties in red stiletto heels and dresses
But for me it's just BLUE and dismay

Have I become a face of a mere stranger?
Have I become an object of yesterday?
Have I become a thing of history?
This cold, sad and blue Valentine's Day!

This Valentine Day is a time of reckoning
I learned the pain of being unappreciated
The humiliation of being forgotten
And of presence no longer wanted

With today's Blue Valentine Day I vow
To no longer wait or expect from another
To no longer be taken for granted
For there's no such thing as 'forever'

Have a BLUE Valentine's Day!

- © M@t@Maya, 14 February 2014

157. PUTERI MU

(Credits and appreciation to the owner of this picture)

Suatu ketika dahulu

akulah Puterimu

yang kau manjakan

dengan kasih nan ayu

Akulah mahkotamu

yang kau letakkan

di atas kepalamu

Akulah permata hatimu

yang kau genggam

bagitu teguh

Akulah bintangmu

yang menerangi

malam gelapmu

Akulah Sang Suriamu

yang memancar

memanaskan duniamu

Tetapi sekarang

aku hanya patung

yang bernyawa

mengikut putaran masa

Aku hanya insan

biasa yang merana

ketandusan nasib

dirundung malang

Bagaikan negara

hilang rajanya

Bagaikan kapal

hilang nakhodanya

Bagaikan malam

gelap tampa cahaya

Aku hanya cangkerang

yang kehilangan maya

setelah engkau pergi

tampa kata-kata

- © M@t@Maya 07 February 2014

156. YOU PICKED UP MY HEART

(Credits and appreciation to the owner of this picture
Written on behalf of Nella))

Darkness loomed 

over my head

and air seemed 

to have thinned down

and the walls seemed 

to close upon me

life slowly withdrew 

from my body

I needed support 

to lean on

I needed light 

to get through

I needed words 

as comfort

I needed love

I needed you

When I had given 

all of my trust

and almost all 

of my life to him

he walked away 

and left me to die

to mourn his loss 

in such grim

Then you came by

like a faint breeze

blowing sense into

my tired mind

and you picked up

the pieces of

my broken heart

and made it whole

Now you're also gone

leaving me broken

like I was before

but even worse

because I thought

you'd stay a little 

longer if not

forever

And here I am

nursing a broken heart

and a wretched soul

dragging myself to

continue my journey of life 

and to cherish your gift 

of a beauitful child -

your son

- © M@t@Maya (16 January 2014)

155. IF THE TEARS

(Credits and appreciation to the owner of this picture)

If

the tears I've shed

for the children of Syria

had been kept

by now they would

have drowned

me

If 

the tears I've shed

for the children of Iraq

had been left to flow

by now they would

have soaked

the earth

If

the tears I've shed

for the children of Africa

had been rivers of gold

by now all children

need not suffer

poverty

If

the tears I've shed

for the children of the world

had been able to heal

by now all children

of the world

are well

But

My tears are just tears

shed out of empathy and sympathy

shed out of frustration and pain

shed out of love and care

for the world and

for humanity

Alas! 

I hope my tears are not in vain

I hope that God in heaven feels my pain

I hope that He hears my plea

I hope that He cares to answer me

I hope that He will soon end

the pain of this world and of the children

- © M@t@Maya 03rd October 2013

154. CHILDREN - WHAT DO THEY DIE FOR? WHY???

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Children.....

Shouldn't they be running 

amongst flowers in meadows 

or tugging the leashes of their doggies

or drawing cartoons on their sketch pads

or licking ice creams on a hot day?

Children....

Shouldn't they be held close

to the bosoms of their mums and dads

or just watching Sesame Street on TV screens

or making faces with each other in their kindy classes

or riding their neon-colored mini bikes?

Children....

Why do we adults bring them forth

to the world they never ask for

yet only to live lives

of sheer pain and

brevity?

Children....

Aren't they supposed to be gifts from God?

Yet they've become the pawns in adults' games

they're the price of adults' wars

and they live in pain

and die in vain

Adults!!!

Open your eyes and look at them

See those tiny bloodied faces

Hear their whimpering cries

Touch their skinny limbs

and watch they die

Adults!!!

Stop that greed! Cease the wars!

Do you think you can own this world forever?

No! Not even the children will

Because of you adults they

the children die

Why???

What do they die for???

- © M@t@Maya 03rd October 2013

153. BROKEN

(Credit & appreciation to the owner of this picture)

The sky is your roof

The ground is your bed

Each day a laboured one

Each night in cold sweat 

That once manly body 

now haggard and weary

And that brawny skin

now covered with dirt

Yet in that peaceful slumber

I see no hatred

I see no anger just pain

and may be regret

Your heart must have been

Broken a hundred times

Your tears must have frozen

Or they have just run dry

What might be the reason 

for such great suffering?

Why have life been so cruel? 

Was it her or was it you?

How many would care to know

How many bother to see

the pain that you bear

in such adversity?

If I know where you are

I would ask how might I help

May be share my lunches

or have my dinners instead

To God in heaven I can only pray

to ease your burden each passing day

To grant you mercy and forgiveness

To guide you again and show you the way

- © M@t@Maya (01-09-2013)

152. HARUSKAH?

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Haruskah aku dipermainkan

di hujung jejari mu

seperti patung wayang kulit

dikuasai Tok Dalang nya?

Haruskah engkau menguasai

hidup ku yang singkat ini

ibarat embun di hujung rumput

hilang tibanya suria di pinggir langit?

Haruskah?

- © M@t@Maya (01-09-2013)

151. BERSEMINYA CINTA DI KOTA AL-JIZAH

(Credit & appreciation to the owner of this picture)

Terlintas dalam fikiran ku

ketika engkau ucapkan kepada ku 

serangkai puisi indah dan syahdu

hatiku terpaut didahan rindu

Teringat ku senyuman manis mu

ketika kau membelai sebelah pipiku

di bawah rembulan bercahaya biru

airmata menitis kerana ku terharu

Termeterailah suatu janji

di antara dua insan yang berani

merentas lautan cinta yang suci

berjanji bersama sehidup mati

Di kota bersejarah Kota Al-Jizah

kau lafazkan cinta yang kian indah

membelai kalbu ku yang menjadi lemah

dan aku menyerah kalah

Bersaksikan tugu yang berkurun usianya

di bawah sinaran bulan purnama

berhadapan dengan piramid yang tua

kita seumpama pinang dibelah dua

Begitulah kisah sepasang insan

yang terpaut di dahan percintaan

dan berjanji hidup sering jalan

hingga ke akhir hayat berteman

- © M@t@Maya (08-08-2013)

150. TODAY IT RAINS IN MY HEART

(Specially for Gabriel - Rest in peace)

It has been years since we last met

when we were young and free

when life was simple

just you and me

Why hadn't we met at least one time

since that last day together

at the orchard cabin

on our own

Now I feel the pain of losing you my friend

the regrets of unspoken words

the time we should

have used

From now onwards, the rain will always be sad

because for me they are tears

the heaven cries

for you

They say that rain makes everything beautiful

but today the rain makes me cry

tears of sadness

of goodbye

I shall remember the sweet smile upon your lips

each time I cracked some funny jokes

about this crazy world

this crazy life

So now you rest in eternal peace my dearest friend

And though you have departed

our memories together

shall remain

And today, it rains in my heart

- © M@t@Maya 28 July 2013

149. PAPA

(Appreciation to the owner/artist of this picture)

Papa

Today I was lost

in my own thoughts and

I wished that you were near

to help me sort them out

and tell me what to do

or at least give me

a word

Papa

There are things

which only a father and

his daughter can share and

talk about without having

to worry about others

knowing or judging

simply

Papa

I long for those times 

when you held my hands 

when we came to crossroads

and led me confidently and

safely to the other side

like a little child

lost

Papa

If only time was ours

to catch and to hold and 

to keep and control I wouldn't

let you go and leave me

to walk the rest of 

this journey

alone

Papa

I am okay and I wish you

are around to share my happiness

or see the children grow and

see the world the way I do

For it is because of

what you made

me do

- © M@t@Maya 10 July 2013

148. CHILD.....

(Appreciation to Donald Zola, the painter of this beautiful painting)

My child,

wasn't it only yesterday that

I held you

to suckle at my breast

to satisfy your thirst?

My child,

wasn't it only yesterday

that I bathed you

and cleaned your tiny body

and washed your wisps of fine hair?

My child,

wasn't it yesterday that

I baked your first birthday cake

and placed some icing sugar

on your tiny nose?

Oh...how time has passed by

flying fast like an eagle

leaving me behind

clinging to dear moments

and not wanting to let go

Children,

now that you've grown

leaving this emptiness in me

like an empty nest

in silence

Children,

yours are now excitement

greeting new days

Mine, just this sadness

and loneliness

Children,

no matter where you are

those precious memories

and this undying love

will always be with me

- © M@t@Maya 24 May 2013

147. WHAT HAS BECOME OF ME

Have I become so insignificant in your life

that I seem to have ceased to exist

except when you are in need

of someone to do your

bidding such as to

clean your mess

or heat the

kitchen?

Have I become invisible to you that

you could just pass me by with no

hello or how have you been

except when you desire

to have your house

cleaned or else

when you're

hungry?

Have I become nothingness to you that

you could just say or do as you wish

without thinking of how I'd feel

when you talk about me and

my shortcomings as if I am

just the wind, no form

no breath that you

can feel?

My heart is screaming to be heard

My body is aching to be touched

My mind is reeling with anger

My soul is yearning to go

If you don't want me

around any more

Just give me

a sign

And I will go....

- © M@t@Maya 30 April 2013

146. A LONG WAIT

It must have been the longest wait

A wait that no clock can measure

A wait till the Twelfth of Never

My wait for you

You left without saying goodbye

No notes nor mails to read

But the traces you left

abound

Seems like yesterday that I heard

the sounds of your laughter

the footsteps you made

the sighs of relief

Yet you're not with me any more

You're no longer here by me

No more loving hugs

No more kisses

All that's left of you are memories

that keep filling my thoughts

and questions on why

it had to be you

If only I could rewind the scenes

If only I could re-live my life

I'd have lived it with you

like each day's the last

Wherever you are or wherever you may be

Don't take away these memories

They're all I have to keep

in this long long wait

- © M@t@Maya (04 April 2013)

145. NOTHING LASTS

We combed the meadows

ran across the fields of flowers

strolled upon the sandy beaches

jet set in the skies

walked along the river banks

Always together

So in love

in love

Then like lightning bolt strike

you were gone from my side

you vanished from my sight

and I was like a lost child

crying out for you

wanting you

to come

to me

Gone is my world with you

Gone is the sound of laughter

that used to ring in the air

for with you all is gone

and I'm still wondering

if it was just a dream

only a dream

a dream

Now I know that nothing lasts

I know that nothing stays

For all things are just

transient in nature

only here on Earth

and I shall never

believe again

in love

Love comes and goes like

the flowers we touched in the meadows

like the winds that blew through our hair

like the sands upon those beaches

like the pebbles in those rivers

like the light of the day

like the shadows

all gone away

 - © M@t@Maya 02 March 2013

144. WALK INTO THE EVENING SUN

Was it yesterday 

that you held my hands 

kissed them 

then laid them on your heart? 

Was it yesterday 

that you brushed my hair 

away from my face 

so that I could see you?

Yet why does it seem 

so long ago like some

ancient memories from 

some unknown time? 

Have I lost my sense of time 

or have I grown 

so dependent upon you 

even for my breath? 

Have I turned into this puppet 

of a person that

comes to life upon the movement 

of your fingers? 

Yet my mind dreams to fly 

and traverse the skies 

My soul yearns to break free 

and touch the stars 

And my heart wants 

to walk into the evening sun 

Where as my psyche 

tells me that I should stay

- © M@t@Maya 05 February 2013

143. THE RED BENCH IN THE PARK

You told me over the phone 

That you’d come and meet me 

Somewhere in the park 

Beneath that special tree 

I went there and I waited 

From seven in the morning until three 

Sitting on the red bench in the park

With an umbrella as my company 

Braving the cold winter wind

I kept waiting oh so patiently 

Your words kept ringing in my mind 

“Baby please be there for me” 

My tears then started falling 

And rolling down my cheeks 

My world came down crushing 

And everything seemed so bleak 

Everything seemed to fade 

Far away from my sight 

Maybe hidden by my tears 

Or enveloped by the night 

It was then I realised 

Something must have gone wrong 

You would never have made me 

Waited for you so long 

Now years had passed by 

But you're never forgotten 

You left without goodbye 

To be with God in heaven 

I just want you to know 

That the love you've given me

I will always treasure 

For eternity

- © M@t@Maya 07-12-2012

142. MUST I DIE? (A Foetus' Lament)

Must I die 

for your wanton behaviour 

and loose moral 

to cover your shame 

and false dignity? 

What have I done 

to become the sacrifice 

of a world going nuts 

where moral standard 

is a thing of the past? 

Where wanton sex 

are just for pleasures? 

Why have you given 

me such brief life 

only to vanquish 

the tiny spark of what 

could be the greatest 

man Earth ever known? 

Who gave you the right 

to bring me from nothingness 

yet only to yank me away 

from what could have been
 my LIFE! 

- © M@t@Maya 05-12-2012