'M@T@MAYA'

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"Many a night I saw the Pleiades, Rising through the mellow shade." - Tennyson

Tuesday, 17 April 2012

23. THE WORLD OF BROKEN MEN AND WOMEN



As I walked along the beach in my mind once more
Old thoughts and memories came back to haunt me
The familiar heartache felt too painful to bear
The sense of hopelessness bore down on my knees
I hate this familiar world in which I once lived
When my heart was wrecked in a storm of broken vows
It was a world where the sky mourned in deep violet
And the rippling sea yielded its emerald jealousy
This was a world where I felt the air was thick
With salty tears from broken hearted people
Crying their eyes out till their tears run dry
Where the sandy beach was blushing with anger
At those heartless folks who had wounded people
Like me, who had given up everything we had
For the love of someone we thought would stay by us
Till the days are out numbered by eternity
This was a world of complete silence and loneliness
A world where broken vows and broken dreams replaced
The leaves and the flowers, the fleeting butterflies
A world where the sun sets in the east and two moons
Chased each other across the deep violet skies
This is the world of broken men and broken women
Who had been cheated and mistreated by those
Who came along or just passing by to peddle their
Hearts upon their sleeves.............


- M@t@Maya (© 19-04-2009)

22. GO!



You came and took my heart with you
Months later, you broke it in two
You came back and begged to have it once more
But, alas, things weren’t like they were before

Did you think you have the sole right to hurt
To crush and trample my heart on the dirt?
You think you could walk in and out of my life
Like I’m some dumb and desperate wife?

I don’t need your insults and pretense
I don’t want your arrogance and absence
I don’t worship the ground that you walk
Nor do I admire your stupid nonsensical talk

Go!! Stay away from me or just disappear
I don’t want to see you anywhere near
I loathe the very sight of you
I wish I had never ever knew


- M@t@Maya (© 29-09-2010)

21. SOMETIMES I WISH



Touching you, reaching out to you
Holding on to you, hugging you
Watching you, teasing you
Seducing you, tasting
you are all that I
so wanna do

Listening to you and hearing you
Caring for you, grooming you
Believing in you and being
with you, comfort you
Telling you that I
love you so

This is my wish, my only wish
And if I could have just
one moment of this
life time to be
with you, I
am done


- M@t@Maya (© 11-04-2009)

20. SET MY HEART FREE



Set my heart free if you no longer love me
and let me fly away to a distant place
where I will not see you and remember you
so that you can begin your life anew.

Set my mind free if you no longer need me
and let me spend the rest of my days
thinking and reminiscing about good times
and heal my broken heart in so many ways.

Set my body free if you no longer desire me
and let me live my life the way I lived before
A life of quiescence free from you and grief
Now that you don't care for me anymore.

Set my spirit free if you no longer want me
by your side and let me wander in the space
as a free soul looking for a star to be my home
where I can wash away the memory of your face.

Set me free if you no longer love me.........


- M@t@Maya (© 23-04-2009)

19. FOR BABY



Dear Baby (that's how I've always called you...)
I will always be your friend
To be there for you
In time of pain
In time of loneliness
In time of desperation
In time of fear
In time of anger
In time of tears
In time of laughter
In time of sleeplessness
In time of hunger
In time of hardship
In time of tiredness
I will always be your friend
To be there for you
To heal your broken heart
To heal your bruised ego
To cure your malady
To make right whatever is wrong
To pray for your well being
To wish for your happiness
To lend you shoulder to lean on
To provide you laps to lie upon
To give you strength to go on
To listen to your happy and sad words
To be everything you need me to be........


- M@t@Maya (©20-02-2009)

18. FIREFLY


A firefly fleeting nearby
Lighting the silent and cold night
Will-o-the-wisps elusive like a spy
Fireworks of the fairy folks they light

That’s what you are to me
A flickering light in my darkest night
A warm comfort in my solitude
A distance star forever bright

And like that star you’re out of reach
Like the moon with halo of gold
Like the firefly forever elusive
A jewel of the night, you’re never mine to hold

You are so far yet you are so near
So close to hear but too distant to touch
You will remain in my heart forever
I don’t just love you….I love you very much


- M@t@Maya (© 07-05-2010)

17. IRRECONCILIBLE

YOU and ME
We’re
TOO different
We’re
beyond help
There’s just
No Way
No Hope
No More
We’re
completely
irreconcilable
We’re
FINISHED!

- M@t@Maya (© 17-01-2011)

16. SILENT CRY



Drop by drop

her tears fall

No color, no sound

In the dark empty room

A Heart broke

A Hope lost

A Dream died

For words remain words

Promises remain promises

And Love should

have been

beautiful

If only it had

been reciprocated

A SILENT CRY

followed

a silent sigh......


- M@t@Maya (© 17-01-2011)

15. CANDLE OF LOVE



One beautiful day last spring
You lit up a candle of love
In the deepest chamber of my heart
Away from the breeze up above
A candle of love still burning bright
Bathing walls of glowing gold
My heart so content feeling so right
Warmed by your light so bright and bold

Please don’t blow off the flickering flame
Let it light up my longing heart
A candle of love in my darkest night
Since you decided to stay apart
A candle of love it brings me hope
Its light burns brighter than the sun
Just let me continue to have its flame
Until the day my life is done


- M@t@Maya (© 21-06-2010)

14. ALONE AGAIN....



LOVE is so FRAGILE....
fragile as the snow flake that falls and gets caught upon a frozen leaf....
one touch, it's gone...

Love is as whimsical as the night breeze....
a soft and silent blow….
as silky thread falling upon a maiden's cheek...

Love was not meant to last for me....
just like a night of full moon....
gone as the sun rises...

Love was fickle....
just like a child presented with many candies....
keeps changing his mind about which one to take...

Love is like a dying swan that has been wounded upon it's chest....
so lost in the pain….
that it feels no fear of death...

LOVE comes…and LOVE goes....
and there you go, too, leaving me with a heart ….
that no longer believes in LOVE...

Alone again......


- M@t@Maya (© 04-01-2011)

13. BENEATH THE GOLDEN SKIES OF KYOTO

That walk along among the maple trees
with red and golden leaves
shall be a memory of our love
that late September day
beneath the golden skies of Kyoto

The sound of the leaves crushing
beneath our feet as we walked
holding hands and swearing love
till the sun gave way to the moon
beneath the golden skies of Kyoto

Your suave looks and dashing smile
melted me until I dropped
upon my knees on the forest floor
dying to feel your tender kisses
beneath the golden skies of Kyoto

I will forever remember you
my charming prince of the Rising Sun
How you held me close to you
that breezy autumn afternoon
beneath the golden skies of Kyoto

But I had to leave you my dearest one
I had to go where I should be
It broke my heart to let you go
and leave this land I once called mine
beneath the golden skies of Kyoto

Sayonara Sayonara Takashima-san
Aishiteru my love Aishiteru
You taught me to love like no other
For here we met and said our first hello
beneath the golden skies of Kyoto


- M@t@Maya (© 24-03-2009)

12. SAHARA MOON

Somewhere
Out there
Amidst the desert dunes
Beneath the Sahara Moon...

Come to me
Touch me now
Let me see
Tell me how....

Stay by me
Search my soul
Hold me tight
Bare my all....

Say sweet words
Caress my skin
Fly me away
Through thick and thin.....

Light up my fires
Savour my mind
Prime my desires
Love ain't so blind.....

Bring me up high
Ride on the breeze
Up till the sky
Give me your kiss.....

Love me tonight
Beneath the clouds
Hold me so tight
Scream out aloud.....

Love me, want me
Bound me.... my soul
Please me, fill me
Tie me....my all

Make it happen soon
Beneath the Sahara Moon.....


- M@t@Maya (© 24-03-2009)

11. MY HEART.....



My heart is a special place
where I hide my love for you
where I bask in your sunshine
where I breathe your morning air
where I taste the sweetest wine
where I savour my first kiss
where I have you to love and to hold
where I am yours alone and you are mine
where I got lost in your embrace
where I fly to the greatest heights
where I am the master of the universe
So you see my heart is my world
And now my HEART belongs to YOU.......


- M@t@Maya (© 21-03-2009)

Monday, 16 April 2012

10. MY APPLE TREE



Dear Apple Tree,
You are my Tree
I came from thee
I’m part of thee
For it was from thy side that I have come
And thy tree was once my home 

Of course I care for you
I hope you care about me too
For you were my shelter
Under the cruel weather
Though I’m now afar
You’re still my star

To light up my way
From dark night till day
So do take care
I’m here to share
Your joy and sorrow
And an uncertain tomorrow

You are my Tree
My dear Apple Tree


-M@t@Maya (© 09-04-2012)

9. HE IS BEAUTIFUL TO ME.......IN MY EYES, IN MY THOUGHTS


In my eyes he has the most beautiful heart I have found
He understands me like a mother
He reads me like a map
He indulges me like a child
He adores me like a painter
He appeases me like the breeze on a sunny day
For this he shall linger a long while in my thoughts

In my eyes he is the most tender soul I've known
He calms my troubled mind
He soothes my aching heart
He eases my weary body
He saves my wandering soul
He touches me in every possible way I could ever imagine
For this he shall earn a special place in my thoughts

He is so beautiful to me
In my eyes he is my world
In my thoughts he owns me....


- M@t@Maya (© 12-03-2009)

8. COFFEE FOR TWO


You cannot imagine how great it feels
to breathe in the same air as you do
to walk on the same street you walk
and to drink a cup of coffee for two

Here am I seeing you every where
hearing your voice all around me
smelling your cologne as if you're there
sitting on a chair drinking my coffee

Wish I've the guts to give you a call
and tell you that I am here all alone
longing to meet you even if just this once
before our paths part ways and all is gone

You know that special place in my heart?
It's still empty since you've been gone
I don't wanna let anyone find it to stay
I'd rather keep it that way and be all alone


Here comes the waiter with coffee for two

One black no sugar, the other sweet and white
One cup made for me, another one for you
Each diluted with my tears on this lonely night

I come this time to bid you goodbye
To wish you luck and all the best
To finish the story and end this cry
To close the final chapter and let it rest

A cup of coffee fresh from my heart
A closure to the love that once flourished
A parting gift now we're indeed apart
An end to a story that's untimely finished


- M@t@Maya (© 26-05-2009)

7. THANKFUL


Like a the soft and gentle breeze
Like a whisper into my ears
Like a warm tender breath upon my face
You have come into my life.....

Careful as a child's first step
Gentle as the autumn wind
Quiet as the moonless night
You have mended my broken heart..... 

Endless as the spacious sky
Tireless as the crushing waves
Fearless as the warrior king
You have been so patient with me....

Joyful I am for your existence
Thankful I am for your persistence
Grateful I am for your resistance
To my continuous denial of all that is you…

How will I ever pay you back
For your kindness and generosity
For the joy and laughter you brought to me
For now my heart has begun to heal and feel again......


- M@t@Maya (© 07-02-2009)

6. OUR SEPARATE WORLD



When it is morning at your place
I would be sleeping in my night
When it's dusk while you rest
Mine is dawn of breaking light

Our love has so much to conquer
The laws of nature the clockwork of the sun
While I am in my deepest slumber
You are awake full of life and fun

I'd be strolling on the beach
Wrapped by the early morning dew
You'd be just retiring to bed
Thinking of me and my love for you

How can we find the time to talk
To hear whispers of love so true
To catch the sun rays and take a walk
That brief moment to reach out to you

I wish we're birds with wings to fly
Across the oceans and over the sea
Over the hills, mountains and sky
To be united - just you and me

While it's so sad but it is true
This love of ours across the miles
When it is time that I meet you
Our world of love is worth the while


- M@t@Maya (© 20-08-2008)

5. CHOOSE WISELY


What is a body
Without a heart that keeps beating?
What is a heart
Without any love for loving?
What is love
Without an act of sacrificing
What is a sacrifice?
Without having to choose
So,
Choose wisely
What you will sacrifice
To win the love
Of a heart
That's beating
In a body that should be
And must have been
Born to Earth
Solely for you.........


- M@t@Maya (© 31-01-2009)

4. YOU WERE



Barely a month ago ….
You were a stranger knocking at my heart's door
Two weeks ago ….
You were the beatings of my heart
One week ago ….
You were the reason for my tears
Three days ago ….
You were a twilight of my dream
Yesterday ….
You were a just a faint light of a dying star
Today ….
You are just another face of a passing stranger
Tomorrow ….
You are will be in the oblivion of my mind
Next year ….
We may cross path again
Only this time we will be total strangers......


- M@t@Maya (© 08-08-08)

3. DON’T WASTE MY LOVE


If I could reach up for the Sun
I would pluck it to warm you up forever 
If I could touch the Moon
I would coax it to give light in your darkest moments 
If I could hold the Earth and cup it in my hands
I would present it to you on a silver platter 
If I could catch the shooting star and tame it by its tail
I would pin it to your coat to show I love you 
So, you see, there's nothing I won't do for you because 
I love you with all my heart, mind, body and soul 
So, please do not waste my love that I have showered upon you
for I can only bestow it upon you just this ONCE! 


- M@t@Maya (© 29-01-2009)

2. BROKEN STRINGS BROKEN WINGS



If you stop loving me now
I'll be like the violin with a broken string
No more music no more songs to sing
Like a heart that's slowly dying
xxx
If you are to desert me now
I'll be grounded like a bird with a broken wing
Unable to fly and touch the sky
Unable to sleep to the lullaby
xxx
If you are to sail away beyond the horizon
I'll be like the boat without its sail
Unable to chart the stormy seas
Unable to berth by the pier of bliss
xxx
If you are to leave me now
I'll be like a puppet without its master
Unable to move my lifeless limb
Unable to cry my tears of grim
xxx
If you are to shut me out of your life
I'll be like the Earth without the Sun
Groping in darkness till life is done
Dying slowly one by one..... and I'll be gone
xxx
Let the violin play its song while the bird fly to the sky
Let the boat sail the sea while the puppet have its ways
Let the sun stay by the Earth to keep it warm, bright and dry
Stay by me and let me love you for the remainder of my days

xxx

- M@t@Maya (© 28-03-2009)

1. LILAC DREAM


Love was when you stretched out your hand 
And softly touched my cheeks to wipe my tears 
It was when I was the prima donna in your life 
When you were the Prince of my lonely heart 

Love was when you kissed my eyes to sleep 
And which brought forth vivid dreams in a 
Lilac colored world with musicals played upon 
Harps of angels where there were just you and me 

Love was when you carried me in your arms 
And tenderly laid me on soft cashmere sheets 
When I was too tired and spent from your loving 
For then we were one mind one soul in two bodies 

Then like a dream that vanished at the break of day 
You were gone while I was still in my slumber 
Basking in the sunshine of your love, my mind still 
Numb from the loving you gave me, and....you’re gone 


- M@t@Maya (© 15-09-2010)