105. SANDS OF TIME

Today I come to a realization 

that no matter what I do,

it will not change the circumstances 

concerning our relationship.

You keep asking for more, 

not thinking once how I feel.

You tell me that you love me, 

that you need me.

But you only remember me 

and come to me 

only when you need me.

I keep yielding to your whims and fancies, 

and in the process 

I keep hurting myself, 

burdening myself with anger, 

pain and sorrow.

I can no longer allow myself to be used by anyone,

not even by you, whom I have chosen to love.

So, starting today 

I am picking up the pieces of what

will become tomorrow's memories, 

and although they have been

carved, etched, ingrained, imprinted 

on to the 

Epitaph Of My Love

I will bury this stone epitaph deep in my heart,

where no one can touch it, 

and time will help me to forget it's existence.

So, even though I have chosen to love you forever, 

I will forget you when the 

Sands Of Time 

have covered the memories of you,

and buried them forever 

in my past.........

- M@t@Maya (©17-03-2009)

104. ETERNITY

They say that ETERNITY is a long long time 

But ETERNITY does not belong to TIME 

And TIME cannot match ETERNITY 

ETERNITY is forever 

To me, ETERNITY is that moment you touched my heart 

With such sweet sorrow and tender feelings 

That which I called a moment seemed to last a hundred if not thousand years 

Yet, how can it be an ETERNITY when all it took was a blink of an eye…….. 

I wish that being with you lasted an ETERNITY 

So that I know not the feeling and the pain of a heartbreak 

But when I had to let you go, the pain of separation last forever 

For an entire lifetime 

For ETERNITY…… 

- M@t@Maya (© 11.11.11)

103. GREY.....

Grey…everything that I see 

With tearful and swollen eyes

Bleak…as if there’s no tomorrow 

When all the love dies 

Empty…that familiar old feeling 

As it is when void has taken over 

Weak…is the beating of this old heart 

Tired from the hurt that never gets better 

Thick…is the air that I breathe 

Filled with the anger that seethes 

Inside me waiting to be freed at the 

Slightest provocation, as light as the breeze 

Hot…is the raging fire that burns so deep 

Within my heart eager to settle this overdue 

Dispute and betrayal that eats into my soul 

And turns me into this monster out to get YOU 

For you had dared to break my heart 

Drown my hope, crush my dreams and take 

Away the only thing that matters to me...

My dignity

 - M@t@Maya (© 17-05-2011)

102. THE FACE IN THE DREAM

A shade of grey fleeting by my sleepy eyes

A whiff of an after-shave borne by the breeze

A soft caress on my cheek was indeed a surprise

A whisper of a word in my ear brought me peace

A face appeared in the dark recess of my mind

Somewhat familiar yet not recognized

A face that I've seen some where some time

Some how and some day I'll see in my life

An image that invoke warm tender feelings

A picture that tugged the line to my heart

A memory of the past that didn't want to be forgotten

A dream that reminded of a love torn apart

That was the FACE that keeps appearing

In a dream that keeps on occurring

- M@t@Maya (© 06-04-2010)

101. HEARTS ON FIRE

Ours are two hearts on fire

Burning bright like distant stars

Two bodies savoured by common desire

I am your Venus and you are my Mars
xxx

Ours are two souls of burning amber

burning deep in the cold windy night

consuming all our passion forever

lighting the skies in starlight bright
xxx

Ours are two minds working in tandem

brilliant sparks of colliding stars

A perfect match made in the heavens

Separable by no one, nothing, not even wars
xxx

Ours are two bodies - the Yin and Yang

Moulded out of finest treasures on Earth

Fitted to be together like a jigsaw puzzle

Separated by gender, by time and birth
xxx

Two hearts on fire burning with desire

Two minds collided to fuse into one

Two souls reunited like burning amber

Two bodies so passionate with love undone

- M@t@Maya (© 31-03-2009)

100. THIRST

Take away this thirst I have 

Bring me the wine I'm craving for 

The only drink that would pacify me 

My thirst has been for thousand years 

Like a desert land I am parched and dry 

Pour on me your sweetest wine - fill me up 

Till I am spent and all the troubles 

Of this world are gone..... 

For you are a fine wine to me 

And I thirst so much for you 

- M@t@Maya (© 30-03-2009)

99. MISSING YOU

I miss you

I miss your closeness
I miss your hand holding mine 

I miss your arms holding me tight 

I miss your fingers touching my face 

I miss you inhaling the fragrance of my hair 

I miss you telling me how much you loved me 

I miss you whispering my name over and over 

I miss your laughter each time I cracked a joke 

I miss your voice that keeps echoing in my mind 

I miss your chest where I hid my face from the sun 

I miss your eyes that seemed never tired of adoring me 

I miss your hugs that gave me such comfort and assurance 

I miss your shoulder where I rested my head tired from driving 

And most of all, I miss your kisses, for they were like none before 

And I just want to tell you that I am so sorry to have kept you away 

Because, the simple truth is, no matter how hard I tried, I cannot bear 

The separation any more, and I need you, want you, beg you to come 

And take me away with you
With you

- M@t@Maya (© 31-10-2010)

98. BURNING WRATH

How could I have loved him so much, now that I hate him to the point 

that I wish that he rot and burn in the bottomless pit for eternity?

How is it possible that I am so angry with him for betraying my love 

and now wish that he could feel what I had felt when he broke my being 

when, at one time, he was enthroned in my heart and had his name 

laced upon my lips so that each time I licked them I would swallow 

his soul bit by bit to become one with me? 

How could I be hating him so much now that I keep wishing that the sun 

never rise for him so that he gropes in total darkness for the remainder 

of his days as punishment for him for forsaking me and my purest love? 

How could it had been him that my heart chose to beat for, for which my eyes 

chose to pour out futile tears, upon which my lips chose to lay kisses 

now that I think of him as the most vile and filthy thing
that I have come across my entire life? 

But for as long as my heart still beats, as long as my eyes still cry tears, 

as long as my mind still plays the memory of those days I had with him, 

as long as he still walks on this earth, I will wish him joy, 

then wish him pain, praise him then despise him, pray for him, then condemn him.

I am still so mad with him for loving me the way he did, 

then forcing me to leave him, because I had no other choice, 

because I hate him for taking away the only love I ever had in my heart. 

- M@t@Maya (© 01-05-2010)