68. IF HE LEAVES ME

My life now hangs by a silver thread

from a cliff of dreams and hope and love

If he leaves me then that thread will break

And I shall crash all the way from above

My days are now like a calendar on the wall

Numbered, marked and remembered one by one

If he decides to leave me now I will fall

My dreams, my hope and my breath all gone

I cannot dream or imagine or even think

My life without him it makes me wanna cry

If he leaves me I'm no one, I am nothing

My thread of life will break and I will die

That is

if he leaves me

- M@t@Maya ( © 30-03-2009)

67. FOOTPRINTS ON MY HEART

That fine day you walked along the beach of my heart

and left your footprints along the lonely shore

I didn't think someone would come away this far

I traced your footsteps to find out if there's more

The footprints now keep becoming closer and closer

like someone there's been staggering along

I wondered what he'd be like, what he was after

Whose footprints were these, to whom do they belong

Against the colors of the setting sun there stood

A figure, a silhouette of a man looking afar

So still, so quiet, so lonely and out of touch

Like his eyes were fixed on the distant stars

Why had he trodden upon my lonely beach

Did he know that with every step he trod

He would leave his footprints forever engraved

deeply on my broken heart, please help me God

No matter how hard the waves'd crash

Upon my lonely beach of gold

His footprints would not be washed

They'll forever stay in my soul

Now he's chosen to leave my lonely shores

and walk away with no care or memories

But does he know that my heart's been touched

when he took a walk along my lonely beach

His footprints will forever stay

on the shores of my saddened heart

they'll be reminders of that day

even when we've grown far apart

Thank you for passing along

the desolate beach of my soul

leaving your footprints in a song

of a silent heart, I gave my all....

- M@t@Maya ( © 15-04-2009)

66. WINTER EMOTION

Oh...how I hate the memory

of the cold winter days

and bittersweet winter nights

Those were the painful days

when my life was at its worst

when my heart bled with heartbreak

when my soul was searching for answers

when my body was wrecked with hunger

when my mind was spinning with questions

Oh...I still can't come to terms

with myself when I recall those

cruel winter days

when no one seemed to understand

and no one seemed to care

Those lonely winter nights

of wanderings lost in the dark

crying tears that cut through my face

those were the time I had wished

that death would come easy

for at that time I was a broken person

lost like a ship in a storm

like a herd without its shepherd

Those were the nights I had the skies

as my roof, the hailstones

as my teardrops, the stars were

witnesses to my desperation

Those were the lowest moments

of my life and I wanna forget

the pain, the tears, the heartache

Winter shall never be my season

For I died momentarily on one

of those cold, wet lonely nights.......

- M@t@Maya ( © 25-04-2009)

65. FOR EONS I HAVE SEARCHED

My soul has travelled the universe in search

Of a Soul Mate to make my life complete

Travelled the suns and moons and planets

To look for love within a heart that'll bleed.....

A heart that'll bleed at the sight and thought of me

A heart that'll promise love infinite

Through thick and thin through rain or shine

For I have searched long and wide.......

For eons have I travelled in search

And eons more I will continue to look

Until my heart's desires are fulfilled

I must find him by hook or by crook.....

I will search and I will look in every nook and corner

Where are you my heart's desire, my soul's provider

My love unmatched, my mind's robber, my body's on fire

Unmasked yourself and show me who you are.....

- M@t@Maya (© 07-02-2009)

64. YOU....

You are in my thoughts each moment of the day

You are in my heart each beating that it makes

You are in my mind each passing of the hour

You are in my reverie each time I close my eyes

You are in my dreams each night that I fall asleep

You are in my breath each time I inhale

You are in my eyes in everything I see

You are in my lips with every word I utter..........

Who are YOU, that YOU are with me in everything I do?

You are YOU, and you know who YOU are

Why are YOU always with me

Because I let YOU be, because.............

I love YOU.

- M@t@Maya ( © 14022010)

63. THE WORLD UPON MY PALM

I almost had the world upon my palm

So close it was I could feel it’s warmth

I could smell it’s fresh sunny showers

Could almost kiss its meadow flowers

It was just another mile to go

Just another trek to follow

It was just one more day to stay

One more stage to act a play

But Arrogance came creeping in

Corrupted my soul with so much sin

Fired my desire for what weren’t mine

Made me question anything divine

For with Arrogance came Greed

Told me to get more than I need

Yet, with everything that I’ve had

Life still feels empty and sad

Because Life doesn’t belong to me

It’s a gift and privilege from The Almighty

How could I even think of having the world

I’m just one arrogant, unthinking greedy girl

One can never ‘almost have’ something

That was HIS from the very beginning……

- M@t@Maya (© 02-12-2011)

62. I KNEW YOU BEFORE I MET YOU (THE DIVINE PLAN)

Who am I to meddle with Divine plan

To have messed up the puzzle pieces

Hoping to create the plan of Man

Trying to play GOD in all His greatness?

To wage a war against the Heaven's force

Is like trying to move the Earth with my finger

If only I had listened to the cosmic whispers

This hellish fear would no longer linger

Who am I to scoff at Destiny

To have mocked and tempted Fate

Hoping to change what was meant to be

To fool the Angels at Heaven's Gate?

I knew I loved you even before I met you

But I chose to fight my way against the tide

I wouldn't let my Chart of Life be proven true

I neglected you, forced you away from my side

Now I am faced with the final moment

To make a decision of a lifetime

But without a heart I'm just a body of flesh

Incapable of giving love devoid of crime

Is it fair to the man who loves me

Be it at day or in the dark of the night

Won't it be wrong to accept him to my life

Just because the future seems so bright?

Someone...Help me...I am at a crossroad...

- M@t@Maya (© 13-07-2009)

61. THE EDEN EXPERIENCE RELIVED

The world seemed like Paradise

Seen from their longing eyes

The flickering colours of neon lights

Seemed to be stars twinkling bright

Two people in the sweetest embrace

Intoxicated in lovers’ daze

The sweet fragrance from their heat

Blown by the wind when bodies met

She stood apart and looked at him

In all his majestic manly frame

Her breath quickened at the sight she saw

She was speechless struck in awe

Then a little voice in her head

Told her to taste the apple red

It told her that she’d find the Truth

The sweetest feeling God put on Earth

She gave him a portion - a bite or two

This would seal their love anew

With renewed strength and wanton desires

They could no longer contain their fires

Their bodies moved in rhythmic dance

Full of love and lust in trance

Two humans who had found love

Now angered The One above

She sat huddled on the bed

Put her arms to hide her head

He reached out to hold her tight

Wanting to love her through the night

But she was ashamed of her nakedness

What had she done, would there be forgiveness?

And lovingly he said to her

“I don’t care…I’ll love you forever

Together we’ll go through thick and thin

Forgive us God for our mortal sin

We would trade our immortality

For a moment’s glimpse of eternity….”

- M@t@Maya (© 26-03-2009)