87. IF I CAN

If I can have the magic wand

I would wave it three times

And make you a pair of wings

So you can fly to me tonight

If I can call out to the Unicorn

I would send him to you

And let you ride upon him

So he can carry you to me

If I can call upon the Wizard

from his lofty kingdom of OZ

I would beg him to chant his magic

And let it lure you to me

If I can convince the Mermaid

Witch under the deep ocean

To use her magic spell and then

Blow unto you her magic potion

But I am a mere human

A mortal with countless flaw

Possessing nothing worthy of pride

Only my boundless love I have for you

So I will never have you for me

Never will I caress your handsome face

It will only be in my dreams that I will see

Where you'll be mine with God's holy grace

- M@t@Maya (© 27-07-2009)

86. WHY???

Who could have guessed that

beneath that black executive suits

behind the Christian Dior shades

sitting quietly at the back seat

of a chauffeur driven black Mercedes

cruising along the beautiful corniche is

a body so weak, a heart barely beating

a mind so lost, a soul so distraught

Who would have thought that

within that porcelain white silky skin

underneath the auburn coloured hair

looking out over the high balcony

far out beyond the emerald coloured sea

is another grieving soul with

eyes all swollen from endless tears

dark circles a sign of sleepless nights

Why is this world so full of injustice?

Those that lied, cheated and stole

could walk so free to hurt more souls

While those that gave, trusted and loved

had to endure the pain of living

If indeed this life is predestined

Then I have lost all hope of loving

Because loving isn't worth it at all......

- M@t@Maya ( © 21-02-2010)

85. THE ROSE

"Je t'aime", I said to you with a single stalk of red rose

With that I sealed my promise to you

And you cared for my red rose like it was your beating heart

but I did you wrong

I kept you out of my life.....I pushed you away

And little did I realized that when I shut you out of my life 

I was cutting away a part of me too

And so died a red red rose

With a single whisper of 

"I Love You..."

- M@t@Maya (© 20-09-2009)

84. I WISH YOU KNOW

I wish you know how much I want to hold you

And lay my head upon your chest to listen to your heart

But I won't, for fear of not able to let you go

And instead become a burden to you.

I wish you know how much I want to touch you

And feel your skin next to mine and let it be

But I can't allow myself to do that for fear

That I would lose my mind over you, so I won't.

I wish you know how much I want to stay by you

And be a loving mate and wife to you

But I haven't got courage and faith in myself

And I will never ever break your heart and hurt you.

I wish you know that I have loved you from the moment

I lay my eyes upon you and felt my heart beating for you

But I can't let you know for fear that you'd turn me away

And that will hurt me for the rest of my days.

- M@t@Maya ( © 26-01-2009)

83. I AM....

I am in your first view of the morning's sun

I am in your tea cup as you sip it in your breakfast

I am in each face you meet on the way to work

I am in your PC's screen as you start off the day

I am in your wallet when you take out a note or two

I am in your favourite midday lunch break

I am in your shadow that follows you every where you go

I am in your nightly dreams and fantasies

Why am I always with you?

Because YOU put me there beside you, inside you, around you.....

Because I AM the ONE you choose to love............

- M@t@Maya ( © 20-08-2008)

82. I STAND HERE WAITING

I stand beneath the azure sky

Wishing her well, healthy and strong

To face each and every new day

For my heart with her now belongs

I stand before the emerald sea

wondering if she's thinking of me

Can she feel deep in her heart

Though we're so far apart?

Could the wind carry my words

And tell her that I am so lonely

That she is always in my prayers

Every moment every hour she's with me

I pray to God for her safety

With each and everything she makes

May God guide her, lead her to me

With each and every step she takes

I stand looking up at the silver moon

As night comes quietly by

And wish for her to come back soon

Stay by me till the oceans run dry

I promise her love everlasting

A love like no other that'll ever be

I'll give her my all, my everything

My heart, my soul, my mind, my psyche

I stand here waiting.........

- M@t@Maya (© 17-03-2009)

81. WHAT IS THAT I WON'T DO FOR YOU

I would walk upon a rainbow

and bring to you a pot of gold

To spread beneath your feet

For your heart, body and soul

I would spread the rainbow yarn

as a carpet where you would walk

As long as I can have your smile

of sweet jasmine as you talk

Then I'll paint the horizon

all the way to the zenith

Rainbow colors for sunset or dawn

Sparkling waters that lie beneath

That's how deep my love is for you

Wider than the whole universe

Higher than the Everest or Kathmandu

More meaningful than all promises

I'd bring to you all the silk

Enough to wrap the Earth ten times over

Bath your body with fragrant milk

Over your body I spread my hair as cover

For you are the Prince of my heart

You are my knight in shining armour

And only you can keep me from apart

My dream lover my sweet paramour

I shall wrap you with my rainbow shawl

Together we'll sail across the heaven

Spinning dreams, colorful fantasies

Making love morning, night, twenty four seven

- M@t@Maya ( © 13-06-2009)

80. END OF THE ROAD

Life itself is a journey

A trip where we get on board

A vessel traversing the years

Till we come to the end of the road

There are times in our lives

When everything seems to fail

When nothing seems to go right

When living is just horrible hell

Sometimes life is so hard to live

Road full of rocks and prickly thorns

So little to receive and more to give

A journey predestined before we're born

At times when there seems no where to go

One feels like ending this painful life

But our lives aren't ours to bargain for

But God's to help Him through this strife

Have you reach the end of your road

Or just at the crossroad to no where

Remember! The end is but a beginning

To a new life that's waiting over there!

- M@t@Maya ( © 11-06-2009)

79. A WALK IN THE RAIN

Today I walked in the rain

To hide my flowing tears

Tears of sadness and pain

Pain of a heart in fears

No matter where I stay

life is still the same

searching every single day

for true love, not a game

No one will ever know

how hollow this heart can be

devoid of warmth nothing to show

That's my life forever empty

Wash them, Oh dear rain

Wash my bitter tears away

Wash all this killing pain Even if it's just for a day

Where is he, my true eternal Love

Fill my heart and let me live

Take me away wherever you wish

I'm tired of just going adrift

Where is he my love's delight?

My hero, my princely cheers

Where is he my bravest knight?

Save me from this endless tears

Tell me God, where is he?

The one that will finally be mine

The one that you've chosen for me

To love forever, rain or shine

Where are you, tell me your name?

Who will love me deep and true

Heal this pain, rid of this shame

Show yourself 'coz I really need you

- M@t@Maya ( © 30-04-2009)