97. MY YESTERDAY

Now I could only look back 

To yesterday 

Unable to touch it 

Unable to change it 

Either grateful 

Or regretting it 

For that is all 

Yesterday is about 

It is the past 

And it shall not return 

Such is my love for you 

Only a distant memory 

Which I now see 

As a tiny flicker of light 

Like a dying star 

For you now belong 

To my YESTERDAY 

To my PAST 

- M@t@Maya (© 17-01-2011)

96. MOTHER EARTH

Sitting here alone in the middle of no where 

I’m tired of this charade and lots of "I couldn’t care" 

What has happened to this weary world of ours 

There’s war, hunger, untimely death at all hours 

The world is now at a cross road 

To live on or die at humans’ careless hands 

What have we done to make things right 

To cure this sickly and much polluted lands 

Sitting here alone at no man’s island 

I have a million things frolicking in my mind 

Things I can barely contain in my hands 

And should have done instead of being ‘blind’ 

Time to wake up and do our part 

Give Mother Earth a break and let’s be smart 

Time to give back what we’ve taken apart 

Let Mother Earth feel the love from our hearts 

- M@t@Maya (© 04-05-2011)

95. FORGIVE ME

Forgive me for running away from you 

It’s not because I stop loving you 

But it’s because I cannot have you 

Forgive me my dearest love, for forsaking you 

Forgive me for refusing to meet you 

It’s not because I loathe you 

Neither is it because I hate you 

Forgive me my one and only for loving you 

Forgive me for turning my back on you 

It’s not because I refuse to hear you 

In fact I fully understand you 

But there’s just no way for me and for you

- M@t@Maya  (© 04-05-2011)

94. LOVE AND IT'S MANY FACETS

Love abused is like a velvet glove fitted on a dirty shoe 

Love unspoken is like an antique treasure box left unopened 

Love unrequited is like rose petals falling upon the white snow 

Love given up is like a favourite rocking chair left to rot in the attic 

Love wasted is like the morning dew soaked up by the desert sands 

Love accepted & appreciated is like a warm blanket in a cold winter night 

Love shared between two loving hearts is like a secret waiting to be unfolded 

- M@t@Maya (© 27-01-2009)

93. MY CHRISTMAS GIFT TO YOU

This Christmas I will send you a gift 

of black and velvety night skies 

with myriads of tiny diamond stars 

to light up your sad and longing eyes. 

Wrapped up in a box of red and gold 

with gossamer ribbons soft and silky 

with colours of the rainbow bold 

tied in a bow knotted with love & kisses from me. 

This Christmas I wish to send you gift 

a five-foot-two porcelain white 

living doll with honey lips 

to love you morning, afternoon and night. 

This Christmas just close your eyes 

Santa will come and bring you 'Me' 

to keep you warm and kindle your fires 

and give you wings and set you free. 

This Christmas I promise you this: 

I will be good, I will be nice 

For this gift, just this once, I will give 

So you be kind, be loving, be wise. 

- M@t@Maya (© 21-12-2008)

92. THE EPITAPH OF MY LOVE

His name is carved in my memory forever 

His face is etched permanently in my mind 

His eyes seek deep into my soul 

His voice forever rings in my ears 

His smiles melt my entire being 

His kisses make my heart skip its beat 

His touch sends my mind reeling 

His promises could wrap the Earth tenths of times over 

These are the very things that made me love him. 

BUT, at times................... 

His actions prompted me to ask, why him? 

His yearnings peek the heavens 

His possessiveness is on the brink of jealousy 

His desires overwhelm and could drown me 

His requests from me would strip me of all my principles 

His words cut like a knife, deep into my very soul 

What he said made me cry a million tear drops 

He said I always receive and never give, but I know its otherwise 

And all I ask of him is to bask in the sunshine of my love 

But this isn't enough for him; so now...what am I supposed to do? 

To forget him or to leave him, I can never do, 'cos everything about him 

Is carved, etched, ingrained, imprinted into THE EPITAPH OF MY LOVE 

But this love I have for him is burning and consuming me day by day 

And I am afraid that one day I'll be reduced to nothingness............... 

 - M@t@Maya (© 29-07-2008)

91. THE SUN ROSE IN HIS EYES

This morning I saw the sun rose in his eyes

He was so happy, so pleased that we are one

I know I'm gonna love him for a long time

Till we're both old and our lives are done

I love the way he held me and my hands

Each time we sat to watch the sun set

The way he ran his fingers through my hair

And how he caressed my face, I won't forget

I love the moments we had while we ate

How we savoured the food we loved

How he dealt with our lovers' spats

How he gazed at the moon above

It is the little things that we do

For each other that means the world

How he says to me "Oh,how I love you"

How he treats me like I'm a little girl

Spending the nights in his arms

Gazing at the stars, lying beneath the skies

Him, keeping me safe from all harms

Laying me to sleep, by kissing my eyes

I love him deeply with all my heart

Will cherish him with all my soul

I can't think of us being far apart

He is my breath, my life, my all

I'll love him till the sun sets in his eyes

Till the moon stops revolving round the Earth

Till the water in the oceans and seas runs dry

I'll love him and prove to him his true worth

- M@t@Maya (© 13-05-2009)

90. THE TEAR

When you came into my life 

With your smile and laughter 

I thought I was the luckiest man alive 

When you lay your head 

On my chest 

I smelled your hair 

When you put your arms around my neck 

I kissed you 

When you whispered my name softly 

I buckled at my knees 

When you slept in my arms while watching TV 

I watched your eyes fluttered 

When you declared your eternal love 

I thought I’d die 

I have given you my heart and my body 

My life, my soul, my time and my money 

Because I love you, and ONLY you 

Then you left me and now all that’s left 

Of me is 

A SINGLE TEAR 

rolling down my cheek…. 

- M@t@Maya (© 28-03-2010)

89. TILL

I will not stop searching TILL I find you 

And hold you close to my chest so 

That you can hear my heart beating 

I will not sleep soundly TILL I see you 

With my very eyes and know for sure 

That you are in front of me at last 

I will not watch the sunset TILL you 

Come and hold my head to your bosom 

To let me hear the sound of your breath 

I will not dry these tears I cry for you 

TILL you come and sit upon my lap 

And tell me that I’m your only love 

I will not rid myself of your memories 

TILL you appear by my side and give me 

The kiss that is meant for me only 

I will not rest my weary bones TILL you 

Surrender yourself to me so that I can 

Pour all my love upon you completely 

So, TILL I can have you all to myself 

I will keep waiting, searching, wanting 

Wishing, praying, thinking and I may 

Even just die momentarily for YOU 

- M@t@Maya (© 26-03-2010)

88. WHAT DO I DO......

What do I do with all the memories of us 

that keep haunting my weary mind 

and that just refuse to go away? 

What do I do with all the traces you left 

on shores of my tired heart 

that become embedded so deep? 

What do I do with the stark reminders 

that you've been here in my life 

that keep popping up everywhere I go? 

What do I do with my long nights 

when your face keep appearing in my dreams 

and reminding me of those times we had? 

What do I do with all your pictures 

that have graced the pages of my life 

that have now been imprinted there? 

What do I do with your gifts of words 

that I have cherished since time exists 

and had become my daily creed? 

What do I do to forget you forever? 

♥ 

- M@t@Maya (© 22-03-2010)