105. SANDS OF TIME

Today I come to a realization 

that no matter what I do,

it will not change the circumstances 

concerning our relationship.

You keep asking for more, 

not thinking once how I feel.

You tell me that you love me, 

that you need me.

But you only remember me 

and come to me 

only when you need me.

I keep yielding to your whims and fancies, 

and in the process 

I keep hurting myself, 

burdening myself with anger, 

pain and sorrow.

I can no longer allow myself to be used by anyone,

not even by you, whom I have chosen to love.

So, starting today 

I am picking up the pieces of what

will become tomorrow's memories, 

and although they have been

carved, etched, ingrained, imprinted 

on to the 

Epitaph Of My Love

I will bury this stone epitaph deep in my heart,

where no one can touch it, 

and time will help me to forget it's existence.

So, even though I have chosen to love you forever, 

I will forget you when the 

Sands Of Time 

have covered the memories of you,

and buried them forever 

in my past.........

- M@t@Maya (©17-03-2009)