106. GOOD BYE VENICE

(Courtesy and appreciation to Xiamen YD Oil Painting art Co., Ltd)

Good bye Venice, gone are the days I grieve for you 

For I have found a love anew where I'll place my heart 

And leave it to feel the shower of a love anew 

Conte partiro, though I love you, now it's time to part 

Good bye Venice, I have loved you with all of me 

Till there is none for me to carry on my life 

Though you had always been my secret dream and fantasy 

I am leaving you for better place and better strife 

Good bye Venice, thank you for all the sweet romance 

But I cannot live on romance alone for I need more to go on 

Soon my heart will be strong again to explore new land 

And it is time for you to forget me and soon I'll be gone 

Good bye Venice, thank you for receiving me with all your heart 

Now I have nothing else to say except to leave you.....and depart 

- M@t@Maya (© 21012009)

105. SANDS OF TIME

Today I come to a realization 

that no matter what I do,

it will not change the circumstances 

concerning our relationship.

You keep asking for more, 

not thinking once how I feel.

You tell me that you love me, 

that you need me.

But you only remember me 

and come to me 

only when you need me.

I keep yielding to your whims and fancies, 

and in the process 

I keep hurting myself, 

burdening myself with anger, 

pain and sorrow.

I can no longer allow myself to be used by anyone,

not even by you, whom I have chosen to love.

So, starting today 

I am picking up the pieces of what

will become tomorrow's memories, 

and although they have been

carved, etched, ingrained, imprinted 

on to the 

Epitaph Of My Love

I will bury this stone epitaph deep in my heart,

where no one can touch it, 

and time will help me to forget it's existence.

So, even though I have chosen to love you forever, 

I will forget you when the 

Sands Of Time 

have covered the memories of you,

and buried them forever 

in my past.........

- M@t@Maya (©17-03-2009)

104. ETERNITY

They say that ETERNITY is a long long time 

But ETERNITY does not belong to TIME 

And TIME cannot match ETERNITY 

ETERNITY is forever 

To me, ETERNITY is that moment you touched my heart 

With such sweet sorrow and tender feelings 

That which I called a moment seemed to last a hundred if not thousand years 

Yet, how can it be an ETERNITY when all it took was a blink of an eye…….. 

I wish that being with you lasted an ETERNITY 

So that I know not the feeling and the pain of a heartbreak 

But when I had to let you go, the pain of separation last forever 

For an entire lifetime 

For ETERNITY…… 

- M@t@Maya (© 11.11.11)

103. GREY.....

Grey…everything that I see 

With tearful and swollen eyes

Bleak…as if there’s no tomorrow 

When all the love dies 

Empty…that familiar old feeling 

As it is when void has taken over 

Weak…is the beating of this old heart 

Tired from the hurt that never gets better 

Thick…is the air that I breathe 

Filled with the anger that seethes 

Inside me waiting to be freed at the 

Slightest provocation, as light as the breeze 

Hot…is the raging fire that burns so deep 

Within my heart eager to settle this overdue 

Dispute and betrayal that eats into my soul 

And turns me into this monster out to get YOU 

For you had dared to break my heart 

Drown my hope, crush my dreams and take 

Away the only thing that matters to me...

My dignity

 - M@t@Maya (© 17-05-2011)

102. THE FACE IN THE DREAM

A shade of grey fleeting by my sleepy eyes

A whiff of an after-shave borne by the breeze

A soft caress on my cheek was indeed a surprise

A whisper of a word in my ear brought me peace

A face appeared in the dark recess of my mind

Somewhat familiar yet not recognized

A face that I've seen some where some time

Some how and some day I'll see in my life

An image that invoke warm tender feelings

A picture that tugged the line to my heart

A memory of the past that didn't want to be forgotten

A dream that reminded of a love torn apart

That was the FACE that keeps appearing

In a dream that keeps on occurring

- M@t@Maya (© 06-04-2010)

101. HEARTS ON FIRE

Ours are two hearts on fire

Burning bright like distant stars

Two bodies savoured by common desire

I am your Venus and you are my Mars
xxx

Ours are two souls of burning amber

burning deep in the cold windy night

consuming all our passion forever

lighting the skies in starlight bright
xxx

Ours are two minds working in tandem

brilliant sparks of colliding stars

A perfect match made in the heavens

Separable by no one, nothing, not even wars
xxx

Ours are two bodies - the Yin and Yang

Moulded out of finest treasures on Earth

Fitted to be together like a jigsaw puzzle

Separated by gender, by time and birth
xxx

Two hearts on fire burning with desire

Two minds collided to fuse into one

Two souls reunited like burning amber

Two bodies so passionate with love undone

- M@t@Maya (© 31-03-2009)

100. THIRST

Take away this thirst I have 

Bring me the wine I'm craving for 

The only drink that would pacify me 

My thirst has been for thousand years 

Like a desert land I am parched and dry 

Pour on me your sweetest wine - fill me up 

Till I am spent and all the troubles 

Of this world are gone..... 

For you are a fine wine to me 

And I thirst so much for you 

- M@t@Maya (© 30-03-2009)

99. MISSING YOU

I miss you

I miss your closeness
I miss your hand holding mine 

I miss your arms holding me tight 

I miss your fingers touching my face 

I miss you inhaling the fragrance of my hair 

I miss you telling me how much you loved me 

I miss you whispering my name over and over 

I miss your laughter each time I cracked a joke 

I miss your voice that keeps echoing in my mind 

I miss your chest where I hid my face from the sun 

I miss your eyes that seemed never tired of adoring me 

I miss your hugs that gave me such comfort and assurance 

I miss your shoulder where I rested my head tired from driving 

And most of all, I miss your kisses, for they were like none before 

And I just want to tell you that I am so sorry to have kept you away 

Because, the simple truth is, no matter how hard I tried, I cannot bear 

The separation any more, and I need you, want you, beg you to come 

And take me away with you
With you

- M@t@Maya (© 31-10-2010)

98. BURNING WRATH

How could I have loved him so much, now that I hate him to the point 

that I wish that he rot and burn in the bottomless pit for eternity?

How is it possible that I am so angry with him for betraying my love 

and now wish that he could feel what I had felt when he broke my being 

when, at one time, he was enthroned in my heart and had his name 

laced upon my lips so that each time I licked them I would swallow 

his soul bit by bit to become one with me? 

How could I be hating him so much now that I keep wishing that the sun 

never rise for him so that he gropes in total darkness for the remainder 

of his days as punishment for him for forsaking me and my purest love? 

How could it had been him that my heart chose to beat for, for which my eyes 

chose to pour out futile tears, upon which my lips chose to lay kisses 

now that I think of him as the most vile and filthy thing
that I have come across my entire life? 

But for as long as my heart still beats, as long as my eyes still cry tears, 

as long as my mind still plays the memory of those days I had with him, 

as long as he still walks on this earth, I will wish him joy, 

then wish him pain, praise him then despise him, pray for him, then condemn him.

I am still so mad with him for loving me the way he did, 

then forcing me to leave him, because I had no other choice, 

because I hate him for taking away the only love I ever had in my heart. 

- M@t@Maya (© 01-05-2010) 

97. MY YESTERDAY

Now I could only look back 

To yesterday 

Unable to touch it 

Unable to change it 

Either grateful 

Or regretting it 

For that is all 

Yesterday is about 

It is the past 

And it shall not return 

Such is my love for you 

Only a distant memory 

Which I now see 

As a tiny flicker of light 

Like a dying star 

For you now belong 

To my YESTERDAY 

To my PAST 

- M@t@Maya (© 17-01-2011)

96. MOTHER EARTH

Sitting here alone in the middle of no where 

I’m tired of this charade and lots of "I couldn’t care" 

What has happened to this weary world of ours 

There’s war, hunger, untimely death at all hours 

The world is now at a cross road 

To live on or die at humans’ careless hands 

What have we done to make things right 

To cure this sickly and much polluted lands 

Sitting here alone at no man’s island 

I have a million things frolicking in my mind 

Things I can barely contain in my hands 

And should have done instead of being ‘blind’ 

Time to wake up and do our part 

Give Mother Earth a break and let’s be smart 

Time to give back what we’ve taken apart 

Let Mother Earth feel the love from our hearts 

- M@t@Maya (© 04-05-2011)

95. FORGIVE ME

Forgive me for running away from you 

It’s not because I stop loving you 

But it’s because I cannot have you 

Forgive me my dearest love, for forsaking you 

Forgive me for refusing to meet you 

It’s not because I loathe you 

Neither is it because I hate you 

Forgive me my one and only for loving you 

Forgive me for turning my back on you 

It’s not because I refuse to hear you 

In fact I fully understand you 

But there’s just no way for me and for you

- M@t@Maya  (© 04-05-2011)

94. LOVE AND IT'S MANY FACETS

Love abused is like a velvet glove fitted on a dirty shoe 

Love unspoken is like an antique treasure box left unopened 

Love unrequited is like rose petals falling upon the white snow 

Love given up is like a favourite rocking chair left to rot in the attic 

Love wasted is like the morning dew soaked up by the desert sands 

Love accepted & appreciated is like a warm blanket in a cold winter night 

Love shared between two loving hearts is like a secret waiting to be unfolded 

- M@t@Maya (© 27-01-2009)

93. MY CHRISTMAS GIFT TO YOU

This Christmas I will send you a gift 

of black and velvety night skies 

with myriads of tiny diamond stars 

to light up your sad and longing eyes. 

Wrapped up in a box of red and gold 

with gossamer ribbons soft and silky 

with colours of the rainbow bold 

tied in a bow knotted with love & kisses from me. 

This Christmas I wish to send you gift 

a five-foot-two porcelain white 

living doll with honey lips 

to love you morning, afternoon and night. 

This Christmas just close your eyes 

Santa will come and bring you 'Me' 

to keep you warm and kindle your fires 

and give you wings and set you free. 

This Christmas I promise you this: 

I will be good, I will be nice 

For this gift, just this once, I will give 

So you be kind, be loving, be wise. 

- M@t@Maya (© 21-12-2008)

92. THE EPITAPH OF MY LOVE

His name is carved in my memory forever 

His face is etched permanently in my mind 

His eyes seek deep into my soul 

His voice forever rings in my ears 

His smiles melt my entire being 

His kisses make my heart skip its beat 

His touch sends my mind reeling 

His promises could wrap the Earth tenths of times over 

These are the very things that made me love him. 

BUT, at times................... 

His actions prompted me to ask, why him? 

His yearnings peek the heavens 

His possessiveness is on the brink of jealousy 

His desires overwhelm and could drown me 

His requests from me would strip me of all my principles 

His words cut like a knife, deep into my very soul 

What he said made me cry a million tear drops 

He said I always receive and never give, but I know its otherwise 

And all I ask of him is to bask in the sunshine of my love 

But this isn't enough for him; so now...what am I supposed to do? 

To forget him or to leave him, I can never do, 'cos everything about him 

Is carved, etched, ingrained, imprinted into THE EPITAPH OF MY LOVE 

But this love I have for him is burning and consuming me day by day 

And I am afraid that one day I'll be reduced to nothingness............... 

 - M@t@Maya (© 29-07-2008)

91. THE SUN ROSE IN HIS EYES

This morning I saw the sun rose in his eyes

He was so happy, so pleased that we are one

I know I'm gonna love him for a long time

Till we're both old and our lives are done

I love the way he held me and my hands

Each time we sat to watch the sun set

The way he ran his fingers through my hair

And how he caressed my face, I won't forget

I love the moments we had while we ate

How we savoured the food we loved

How he dealt with our lovers' spats

How he gazed at the moon above

It is the little things that we do

For each other that means the world

How he says to me "Oh,how I love you"

How he treats me like I'm a little girl

Spending the nights in his arms

Gazing at the stars, lying beneath the skies

Him, keeping me safe from all harms

Laying me to sleep, by kissing my eyes

I love him deeply with all my heart

Will cherish him with all my soul

I can't think of us being far apart

He is my breath, my life, my all

I'll love him till the sun sets in his eyes

Till the moon stops revolving round the Earth

Till the water in the oceans and seas runs dry

I'll love him and prove to him his true worth

- M@t@Maya (© 13-05-2009)

90. THE TEAR

When you came into my life 

With your smile and laughter 

I thought I was the luckiest man alive 

When you lay your head 

On my chest 

I smelled your hair 

When you put your arms around my neck 

I kissed you 

When you whispered my name softly 

I buckled at my knees 

When you slept in my arms while watching TV 

I watched your eyes fluttered 

When you declared your eternal love 

I thought I’d die 

I have given you my heart and my body 

My life, my soul, my time and my money 

Because I love you, and ONLY you 

Then you left me and now all that’s left 

Of me is 

A SINGLE TEAR 

rolling down my cheek…. 

- M@t@Maya (© 28-03-2010)

89. TILL

I will not stop searching TILL I find you 

And hold you close to my chest so 

That you can hear my heart beating 

I will not sleep soundly TILL I see you 

With my very eyes and know for sure 

That you are in front of me at last 

I will not watch the sunset TILL you 

Come and hold my head to your bosom 

To let me hear the sound of your breath 

I will not dry these tears I cry for you 

TILL you come and sit upon my lap 

And tell me that I’m your only love 

I will not rid myself of your memories 

TILL you appear by my side and give me 

The kiss that is meant for me only 

I will not rest my weary bones TILL you 

Surrender yourself to me so that I can 

Pour all my love upon you completely 

So, TILL I can have you all to myself 

I will keep waiting, searching, wanting 

Wishing, praying, thinking and I may 

Even just die momentarily for YOU 

- M@t@Maya (© 26-03-2010)

88. WHAT DO I DO......

What do I do with all the memories of us 

that keep haunting my weary mind 

and that just refuse to go away? 

What do I do with all the traces you left 

on shores of my tired heart 

that become embedded so deep? 

What do I do with the stark reminders 

that you've been here in my life 

that keep popping up everywhere I go? 

What do I do with my long nights 

when your face keep appearing in my dreams 

and reminding me of those times we had? 

What do I do with all your pictures 

that have graced the pages of my life 

that have now been imprinted there? 

What do I do with your gifts of words 

that I have cherished since time exists 

and had become my daily creed? 

What do I do to forget you forever? 

♥ 

- M@t@Maya (© 22-03-2010)