143. THE RED BENCH IN THE PARK

You told me over the phone 

That you’d come and meet me 

Somewhere in the park 

Beneath that special tree 

I went there and I waited 

From seven in the morning until three 

Sitting on the red bench in the park

With an umbrella as my company 

Braving the cold winter wind

I kept waiting oh so patiently 

Your words kept ringing in my mind 

“Baby please be there for me” 

My tears then started falling 

And rolling down my cheeks 

My world came down crushing 

And everything seemed so bleak 

Everything seemed to fade 

Far away from my sight 

Maybe hidden by my tears 

Or enveloped by the night 

It was then I realised 

Something must have gone wrong 

You would never have made me 

Waited for you so long 

Now years had passed by 

But you're never forgotten 

You left without goodbye 

To be with God in heaven 

I just want you to know 

That the love you've given me

I will always treasure 

For eternity

- © M@t@Maya 07-12-2012

142. MUST I DIE? (A Foetus' Lament)

Must I die 

for your wanton behaviour 

and loose moral 

to cover your shame 

and false dignity? 

What have I done 

to become the sacrifice 

of a world going nuts 

where moral standard 

is a thing of the past? 

Where wanton sex 

are just for pleasures? 

Why have you given 

me such brief life 

only to vanquish 

the tiny spark of what 

could be the greatest 

man Earth ever known? 

Who gave you the right 

to bring me from nothingness 

yet only to yank me away 

from what could have been
 my LIFE! 

- © M@t@Maya 05-12-2012

141. MY LOVE, WHEN YOU LOVE ME

I felt you slowly lay me down

Upon the couch our love nest be

With patience and wonder in silent count

you stripped me of all my dignity

But I didn't care if it's just that

For you I'd do whatever I could

I wanted you to make me complete

To possess me and put me in your mood

I felt your touch upon my skin

as I lay my head down to sleep

Like butterfly wings fluttering in the wind

I felt my heart skipped a beat

I felt your breath upon my cheeks

Your warm lips brushing mine

I felt my knees getting so weak

I was drifting into sublime

I felt your fingers through my hair

Your kisses trailing down my throat

I just wanted you to always be there

To go on loving me till I drop

I felt your hands caressing my back

Sending tingles right to my heart

Your arms imprisoned me Oh...so strong

Like we've never ever been apart

I felt your body so close to mine

crushing my bones till I couldn't move

I felt your lips exploring mine

searching my mouth looking for love

I felt your heart beating strong

against my own racing so fast

I knew that you're where I belong

I knew then you're my future my past

The moment could only be likened

To the cosmic birth of a star

To the music in crescendo

To the waves crushing afar

Peaking up until the heaven

Soaring high like an eagle fly

You were me and I was you

We were one beneath the sky

The world, the universe was ours

When you loved me......

- M@t@Maya (© 29-03-2009) 

140. THE RESPONSE (TO ForeVer's POEM)

Dearest,

I feel every pain that surges within you

I live every loneliness that lingers over you

I feel you're lost and out of place

Feel like an angel fallen out of grace

I feel your world stop spinning

I hear your heart stop beating

I feel your lips devoid of warmth

Your breath no longer coming

But your Sun didn't stop shining

It's only hidden by the clouds

Kneel no more my Sweetest Love

Come, fly away with me to our destiny

Listen carefully for the angels' harps

For Pan's flute and the singing dove

Let me feel your weakening pulse

For I shall not let you go

Nor shall I let you die

For in you I place my destiny

With you I place my life

Wake up My Love, feel my kiss

This is me you've waited for

From the universe I've come

To love you now and forever more

Live My Love, Live again

I'll plead to God to bring thee rain

And I shall flow over you, inside you

Breathe life into you

For I am your Sun as you are my Day

I will warm you till all the stars burn away

- M@t@Maya (© 27-03-2009)

139. NOT ANGRY WITH YOU

I’m not angry with you 

I’m just disappointed with you 

You, whom I’ve been counting on 

Yet you are the one who abandoned me 

I don’t regret knowing you 

I don’t wish anything any more too 

You, whom I’ve loved so much these years 

Yet you are the one who threw my love away 

I didn’t mean to hurt you 

I didn’t want to be bullied by you 

You, whom I’ve trusted with all my heart 

Yet you are the one who tore my life to pieces 

And now I’m glad that I’m free 

I’m glad to stop you from using me 

From now you will realize that you will be 

Your own angry opponent and greatest enemy 

- M@t@Maya (© 20-11-2012)

138. SILENT TEARS

They thought it was lightning 

Streaking across the night sky 

Then a thundering blast shattered the silence 

Women and children scampering by 

Cries of fear and pain filled the still air 

Men looking for lost families 

Houses and dwelling turned to rubble 

What should have been dinner time 

Turned to time of untimely deaths 

No matter how loud they screamed 

No amount of their tears could stop 

The cruelty, the atrocities of Man 

And Mother Earth could only watch 

In silent tears……. 

- M@t@Maya (© 18-11-2012)

137. IF ONLY I KNEW

If only I knew that one day I would meet you

I would have pleaded with Him to let me stay

A while longer in Paradise before sending me

Down to Earth and start my lifetime before yours

If only I knew how to turn back the hands of time

I would have just returned to my starting point

Just so that I could start all over again with you

To love and to live our lives till death do us part

If only I knew that one day such a gorgeous guy

Like you would be born on this borrowed world

I would have remained chaste and stayed alone

Until our paths eventually crossed and we would meet

If only I knew that even with all this we would still brave 

The rain and brave the storm of love, I would have just 

Not bothered with listening to reasons and rhymes 

Instead I would live and love you with all my heart, mind, body and soul......

If only, if only I knew then..........

- M@t@Maya (© 17-01-2009)

136. HOW DOES ONE TELL?

How does one tell the moon to stand still 

and wait for the sun so that their brilliance enchant the Milky Way?

How does one build a castle of sand upon a beach 

beaten by waves day after day?

How does one reach out for the stars 

and pluck them to brighten the darkest night?

How does one say goodbye to yesterday 

and say hello to tomorrow, when today remains a twilight?

How can we tell someone that some things cannot be changed, 

that the hands of time cannot be turned back?

How does one tell someone that love, 

though so sweet can be painful, and can bring a heartbreak? 

- M@t@Maya (© 17-03-2008)

135. GOOD MORNING FOR TOMORROW

GOODBYE was for YESTERDAY 

When I thought that it was time to let you go 

So you would not have to bear 

The burden of loving and caring for me 

HELLO is for TODAY 

When you told me again that I am yours 

That you'll never free me 

Not for moments, minutes or hours 

GOOD MORNING is for TOMORROW 

When you open your eyes to greet the sun 

I'm glad you didn't let me go 

Now I'm certain you're THE ONE.

- M@t@Maya (© 09-01-2009)

134. GOODBYE TOMORROW, HELLO YESTERDAY

To spare you the pain of letting go 

Here I offer you my hand 

For you to bid me GOODBYE 

For TOMORROW..... 

To spare you the pain of remembering 

Here I offer you your heart 

I am giving it back as a HELLO 

For YESTERDAY..... 

To spare you the pain of sorrow 

Here I offer you my last farewell 

For you to take with you as you leave me 

Finally TODAY........ 

- M@t@Maya (© 04-01-2009) 

133. YOU WILL BE....MY DEAREST

My Dearest,

You will be my friend for all time 

You will be my shadow during the day 

You will be my reflection during the night 

You will be my Sun during my darkest hour 

You will be my Moon in a starless night 

You will be my reverie when I am awake 

You will be my vivid dream when I sleep 

You will be my pillar of strength when I am weak 

You will be my comfort pillow when I am sad 

You will be shelter from the storm 

You will be my wings to fly 

You will be the kisses to my lips 

You will be the tears when I cry 

And most of all.........you will be my love for eternity 

- M@t@Maya (© 17-03-2009)

132. WINGS

Soon you will earn your 'Wings'

To fly across the deep blue sky.

Soon you will be free

To fulfil your dreams and be with me.

Soon you will learn the meaning of life

To fine your true love and a wife.

With your new found 'Wings'

You will find me;

You will span the ocean, cross the sea;

With your new found 'Wings'

You will reach my world

The magical land of your dream girl.

When you have found Me

Your 'Wings' will set me free.

Fly, My Love, fly to the sun

Take me along, have some fun.

Fly to my Land of The Long White Cloud

Fly your 'Wings', make me proud.

Across the ocean, over the sea

Fly, My Love, Fly over to Me.

- M@t@Maya (© 09-08-2008)

131. LAST NIGHT....

Last night while you were sleeping 

I pulled up the cover to make sure 

that you were always warm and comfortable....

Last night while you were sleeping 

I sat quietly and watched 

your eyes fluttering in dreams....

Last night while you were sleeping 

I kissed your forehead and told myself 

how lucky I was to have you by my side....

Last night while you were sleeping 

I brushed away the wisps of hair from your face 

and reminded myself how much I love you....

Last night while you were sleeping 

I listened to the soft sound of your calm breathing 

and I thanked God for the gift of you....

Last night as I sat watching you sleep 

I prayed to The Almighty to grant me this privilege 

of meeting you, knowing you, being with you 

and loving you until eternity

only then, could I lay myself beside you 

and close my eyes to sleep. 

Good night my love, 

let us rest our weary bodies and tired mind....

- M@t@Maya (© 20-10-2010)

130. JE T'AIME....A JOURNEY OF NO RETURN

Close your eyes and hold my hands 

I will guide you to the place 

Where birds sing in colours 

And the wind trails are angels' songs 

Where the sun sets in gold 

And the sea lay still as if in sleep 

Feel the cool autumn breeze 

Blowing jasmine scents in your hair 

You are going with me to my love nest 

Feel the winds beneath your wings 

The moistened clouds brushing your lips 

You are mine and I am yours in this 

Lost paradise of broken dreams and vows 

But we're going to fix it right 

With our love so sacred and pure 

Love that was born when time was nothing 

But which has thrived through all 

The calamities of this troubled Earth 

Such is our love upon which our souls 

Fly for eons over the distant stars 

My love for you is so deep and sacred 

A sheer curtain shrouding the Earth 

I know I've loved you long ago before time 

And I am loving you now, and I will love you 

Tomorrow, the day after, and forever more 

And no one will love you like this ever 

Close your eyes and just let me take you 

To that place where love doesn't die 

Where hearts don't break and where souls 

Are free....just follow me, Je t'aime 

For this is a one-way trip, my Heart 

This is a journey of no return.....

- M@t@Maya (© 31-03-2009)

129. FALLING

God, help me, I am falling

Falling so hard and so deep

I'm afraid I would crash

Out of control......

God, my heart is racing

Racing so fast and loud

I'm scared I would die

Before touching him....

God, my head is spinning

Till my eyes couldn't see

I'm so dizzy I would fall

Even more in love.....

God, give me your hand

Guide me on this journey

I'm scared I would lose

My way to him......

God, I wish he knows

Just how much I feel

How much I love him

Like I've never been....

God, I know You know

How much I wanna be

With him right now

I wish he's with me....

God, help me cos I'm falling

This time too far below

I can't return

To where I was before...

Help me, God, help me to cope

Help me to contain these feelings

Help me from falling further

For I must not be.......

- M@t@Maya (© 25-03-2009)

128. OUR LOVE

Our love….So natural 

Like the morning dew

So beautiful 

Like a coloured glass bead 

So fragile 

Like a tiny crystal ball 

So transient 

Like the wind 

So hard to hold on to

Like a dream 

So brief 

Like a wink of an eye 

Yet so hard to forget 

And so painful to remember……. 

- M@t@Maya © 26-09-2012

127. DON'T TELL ME!!

For someone who imagines he can OWN me.....

Hey! You! 

Don't you ever tell me what to do any more

for I am tired of you trying to run every show for me

I am not an invalid and as for now I am still capable

Of running MY LIFE the way I WANT to and HOW it pleases me

Stop acting as if you know everything in this and my world

You know nothing about me and where I come from 

and much more I am not used to being controlled, 

being 'managed', being told

I have been managing me, deciding for me, 

doing what pleases me since I was capable of doing so, 

so PLEASE be reminded that I am ME.

Let me just tell you that I don't like to be constrained

That I love freedom and I will choose what I want to do and who 

I would like to be by my side in my quest for a better tomorrow 

Don't restrain me for you will only suffocate me 

and leave me with no choice but to push you away from me 

so I have my own space and privacy

Stop what you are doing and live your life your own way 

and leave me alone to chart the rest of my journey to my destiny, 

for I don't want you to tell me what to do

as I have enough of you and I want you to find your own destiny

I am who I am, I don't want to be changed by anyone

I will change because of ME alone. 

Get it?? 

- M@t@Maya (© 01-09-2008)

126. DO YOU KNOW?

Do you know how difficult it is

for me to love you while trying to remain sane?

Do you know how painful it is 

for me to please you while compromising my principles?

Do you know how heavy it is

for me to carry the burden of guilt just to be with you?

Do you know how tiresome it is

for me to keep up with your desires and temper tantrums?

Do you know how tempting it is

for me to just leave the comfort of my world for your arms?

Do you know how surprising it is

for someone like me to fall for you and your so ordinary life?

Do you know how hard it is

for me to convince myself that I can live my life without you?

Do you know how easy it is

for me to become so angry at you for always taking me for granted?

Do you know how often it is

for me to just think of letting go of this tiring, demanding relationship?

Do you know how frustrating it is

for me to continue sacrificing my patience, 

my sanity and most of all, my life?

Just for the sake of YOUR LOVE....if that is what this is all about!

I don't think you know even for the slightest moment......

- M@t@Maya (© 04-01-2009)

125. COLOURS OF LOVE

I heard the sound of your voice

and saw words tumbling out in colours

of a rainbow crossing the skies 

soon after a sunny showers 

Was it a dream or was it for real

that husky voice speaking of love

Oh God, I can't understand what I feel

Is this thy blessings from above? 

How can someone loves so much

Can a heart bear all the passion

that I have for you and you for me

Is this a figment of my imagination? 

How beautiful a love can be

Blue is the colour when you're away

Yellow is the colour of your smiles

Red is our love for each other everyday 

God, please don't take away

the beautiful colours of my life...... 

- M@t@Maya (© 26-03-2009)

124. YOU CAME INTO MY LIFE UNINVITED

You came into my life like a flash of lightning 

So fast, so sharp, so hot, so intense with love 

Then, like a flame extinguished by pouring rain 

You vanished into ashes disappearing from above 

You came into my heart like a thief in a quiet night 

And steal away all that is there in my heart's content

Then, like a thief you slipped away with all of me 

Never to be heard again................ 

You came into my mind like a cancerous growth 

That slowly invaded every cell of my memory 

Then, like fire burning upon a piece of wood 

You left glowing amber that burns deep inside of me 

You came into my life uninvited like a fly so loathed 

So hated, yet you pushed your way into my space 

And shook my cosy little nest with your promises 

Which are now but lies upon lies that have become waste 

I HATE every inch of you for your lies and empty promises 

For wrecking my trust in thee and for hurting me 

I HATE you with all my heart for as long as I shall live

You.........I shall never ever forgive.......................... 

-- M@t@Maya (© 28-02-2009)

123. JUST ME

Why did you look for me? 

Why are you still looking for me? 

For I have nothing but just me 

No wealth, not title nor rank 

Just a person in this ailing society 

I possess no land, nor any property 

No strings of credentials 

from prestigious academy. 

I have nothing to offer to those 

looking for worldly pleasures 

I believe in simplicity and honesty 

I have no money nor fancy cars 

No boats to sail nor jet planes to fly 

What I have I share with the world 

God-given nature, the sea and sky 

For I...

have only me…..

Just me. 

- M@t@maya (© 17-09-2012)

122. THE TONGUE

Trust not the TONGUE…..

It can promise you the World 

So can it break you apart 

It can promise you LOVE eternal 

Then break your tender HEART

- M@t@Maya ( © 05-10-2010)

121. BEAUTIFUL DREAM, PAINFUL REALITY

Watching you from afar

sets my heart afire

for no one knows 

how much I love you.

Pretending to be only 

friends with you

telling you how I love

watching you grow.

Pretending to be proud

to see you explore

the world of love

with your young heart.

How I wish you know

how my heart yearns 

to let you in and 

sit upon it's throne.

If only you know 

how many lonely nights

I spent thinking and dreaming

to be with you.

But we both know that 

this shall and can only

be a beautiful dream

but painful reality.

- M@t@Maya ( © 25-08-2012)

120. MEMORIES

The flowers are in full bloom...

colouring the meadows into a carpet....

The birds dance in mid-flight 

and the butterflies fleet in and out of their flowers 

and at night the fireflies light up their neons......

but that was YESTERDAY'S, 

when we were youths and now we have grown.....

So dies the youth in each and everyone of us....

and in its place is what we call 

MEMORIES....

- M@t@Maya (© 09-09-2009)

119. KYOTO LOVE

Kyoto......

my heart was there for a time...

for it never really left....

and now when I close my eyes, 

my soul and my spirit fly 

upon the silent winds just to be there again...

to walk beneath Kyoto skies...

and listen to the birds in the bamboo groves...

Oh how I long to return to the love of my heart...

and there he still awaits me....

- M@t@Maya (© 05-09-2009)

118. BOUNDLESS LOVE

Together forever

 through thick and thin

Love like no other

No beginning no end

That dwells in each

And every breath

That goes beyond

The bounds of death

- M@t@Maya (© 31-07-2012)

117. ALWAYS IN MY HEART

Encased in a silver box

encrusted with love crystal,

securely tucked in the secret corner

of the fourth chamber

within the stronghold

of my beating heart....

There you stay forever and ever

Until the oceans run dry

Until the birds cease to fly

Until the stars burn away

Until the night no longer change to day....

There you shall stay for eternity.

For you are mine and mine alone

For you were, you are

and you shall

ALWAYS IN MY HEART!

- M@t@Maya (© 19-04-2010)

116. OHRID - THY LAKE BECKONS

Lay thee in peace as I leave thee 

For I shall remember thy great beauty 

Wait thee for me for I’ll return 

To be near thee, please wait for me 

So deep thy waters, mysterious yet calm 

Untouched by wastes, unscathed by industries 

I’d wish for thee to remain pure and chaste 

For in thee I found my God and inner peace 

Ohrid, thy lake beckons to me 

I shall return with greetings and love 

To breathe thy air and be carefree 

And thank The Almighty God above 

- M@t@Maya (© 28-07-2012)

115. LAKE OHRID

In one brief moment

your smile won me over

your touch re-assured me

that I'm still capable

of reciprocating

a man's love

Your eyes are reflection

of the blue waters

of Lake Ohrid

which bore witness

to the brief time

our hearts met

Your calm and humble being

brought me to my knees

in a land I once dreamed of

And I thank you 

for being there

for caring

I came, I saw but I did not

conquer you, Macedonia!

Instead I left behind

my heart somewhere

over there by the

Lake Ohrid

-  M@t@Maya (© 23-07-2012)

114. BORROWED TIME, BORROWED WORLD

Not by chance nor by coincidence 

From the spark of His fire has she come 

Born to her mum and to her dad 

To leave a mark on the pages of life 

To bring joy to the hearts of those who know her 

To be a lover, a companion, a friend, a wife

To the man who has chosen her

To be the mother to his children. 

Life in this world is a privilege 

A nursery, a school, a work place 

A test of strength, wit and will 

All on borrowed time 

And she thanks Him, The Almighty Heavenly Father 

For the chance to make a difference 

No matter how trivial or small 

In this borrowed world. 

- M@t@Maya (© 18 July 2012)

113. THE TEARS ON THE ROSE

As he sat opposite her 

At the dining table 

He handed her a single rose

Red as the ruby gemstone 

Bound by yellow gold 

That fit snugly around 

Her slender ring finger 

She accepted the rose 

With a smile and both hands 

Her heart beating wildly 

As she waited for his words 

Then in the midst of her ecstasy 

He dropped a single word 

‘Goodbye’ and three large

Tears rolled down her cheeks 

Dripped silently upon 

The blushing red petals 

Of the single rose

And

He was gone

- M@t@Maya (© 06-05-2010)

112. REMEMBERING 'HABIBI'

Sitting at Starbucks sipping coffee 

Or walking along Oxford Street 

Never fails to evoke sweet memory 

Of my dearest friend, ForeVer Habibi

Driving along Doha's Corniche 

Watching the sea so calm and still 

Remembering someone special in my heart

Longing to hear his voice so thrill 

Recalling a funny incident 

When 'Habibi' tried to jump onto his bed 

And fell down groping in the dark 

Cutting his chin, luckily not his head 

I often smile as I remember 

The stories we shared that bygone day 

I miss 'Habibi' telling me stuff 

In his excited, funny and honest way 

You know, I never fail to say 

A prayer to petition to Him 

To keep 'Habibi' well everyday 

To fulfil each and all his dreams 

'Habibi', I feel empty and lost 

When you decided to stay away 

But I'll keep your memory uppermost 

In my mind till my dying day 

Thank you, 'Habibi' for being YOU 

For crossing the path of my destiny 

For teaching me the meaning of LIFE 

For ever sharing your LOVE with me 

Someone remembers, someone cares 

Someone dreams about you, someone smiles 

Because you have left your footprints there 

Deeply imprinted in my heart for miles 

Take care, 'Habibi', be safe be well 

For I'll be worried if you're in pain 

Keep cool, be kind to your body and mind 

And if God wills it, you'll hear from me again 

- M@t@Maya ( © 22-05-2009)

111. TAKE MY HAND

Take my hand and let me bring you into my life 

Let me love you with all my heart 

And cherish you with all my care 

Take my hand and let me show you my world 

Let me bring you all the joy 

And treat you nice with all I have there 

Take my hand and let me share my happiness 

Let me adore you day and night 

And let you feel my closeness to you 

Only then you will know how much 

I Love you……….. 

- M@t@Maya ( © 06052010)

110. LONGING

I long to feel your touch 

Your fingers running through my hair 

I long to hear you voice 

Whispering ‘I love you’ each night 

I long to smell your hair 

And the aftershave you used each day 

I long to feel your hug 

That wrapped around me so tight 

I long to watch the sunset 

And our walk by the corniche 

I long for you my dearest one 

I am missing you so much 

Yes!...................

- M@t@Maya ( © 06052010)

109. WHAT I WOULD LIKE

I would like to sit under the night skies 

And watch the stars’ flickering lights 

Sitting close to you Oh so nice! 

Feeling your arms holding me tight 

I would like to sit and feel the night breeze 

With smell of the sea and fresh jasmine 

Savouring your caress and lingering kiss 

Weakening my bones and teasing my skin 

The stars they shine just like your eyes 

You brought me joy you brought me love 

You opened my heart and made me wise 

You are a gift from God above 

- M@t@Maya (© 01062010)

108. WALKING AWAY

I am walking away 

I am leaving you behind 

I shall not look back 

Nor shall I pass this way again 

You will become my yesterday 

And you won’t share my tomorrow 

Our lives are too different 

We’ve nothing in common 

My world is wide and well travelled 

Yours is small and closer to home 

My life is riddled with pain and pleasure 

Yours is enclosed under a nut shell 

My heart has been overjoyed 

As many times as it has been broken 

And I do not want any more hurt 

So stay away from me and let me be 

For I am content to be on my own 

You belong with your family 

Don’t forsake them for your own 

Over indulgence and mortal pleasure 

- M@t@Maya (© 25052010)

107. REPENTANCE

Here I am, standing at the edge of time

Counting hours till the awaited moment

When my life shall be reviewed for crime

Of mortal weakness and eternal torment

Is it now too late to redeem my soul

To cleanse my body of mortal sins

To get back my life and a heart of gold

And be the Temple of God within?

Here I am , out in the cold wintery night

Wondering if there’s reason to go on

If there’s a way to make things all right

And live a new life, the past be bygone

Would He be willing to forgive my wrong

To forget my arrogance and materialistic ways

Would He help me get up and let me be strong

To charter another journey till the end of my days

Here I am, a mortal wreck trying to rebuild

A better life anew

An ordinary being, trying to mend my ways

And what about you?

- M@t@Maya ( © 29042010)

106. GOOD BYE VENICE

(Courtesy and appreciation to Xiamen YD Oil Painting art Co., Ltd)

Good bye Venice, gone are the days I grieve for you 

For I have found a love anew where I'll place my heart 

And leave it to feel the shower of a love anew 

Conte partiro, though I love you, now it's time to part 

Good bye Venice, I have loved you with all of me 

Till there is none for me to carry on my life 

Though you had always been my secret dream and fantasy 

I am leaving you for better place and better strife 

Good bye Venice, thank you for all the sweet romance 

But I cannot live on romance alone for I need more to go on 

Soon my heart will be strong again to explore new land 

And it is time for you to forget me and soon I'll be gone 

Good bye Venice, thank you for receiving me with all your heart 

Now I have nothing else to say except to leave you.....and depart 

- M@t@Maya (© 21012009)

105. SANDS OF TIME

Today I come to a realization 

that no matter what I do,

it will not change the circumstances 

concerning our relationship.

You keep asking for more, 

not thinking once how I feel.

You tell me that you love me, 

that you need me.

But you only remember me 

and come to me 

only when you need me.

I keep yielding to your whims and fancies, 

and in the process 

I keep hurting myself, 

burdening myself with anger, 

pain and sorrow.

I can no longer allow myself to be used by anyone,

not even by you, whom I have chosen to love.

So, starting today 

I am picking up the pieces of what

will become tomorrow's memories, 

and although they have been

carved, etched, ingrained, imprinted 

on to the 

Epitaph Of My Love

I will bury this stone epitaph deep in my heart,

where no one can touch it, 

and time will help me to forget it's existence.

So, even though I have chosen to love you forever, 

I will forget you when the 

Sands Of Time 

have covered the memories of you,

and buried them forever 

in my past.........

- M@t@Maya (©17-03-2009)

104. ETERNITY

They say that ETERNITY is a long long time 

But ETERNITY does not belong to TIME 

And TIME cannot match ETERNITY 

ETERNITY is forever 

To me, ETERNITY is that moment you touched my heart 

With such sweet sorrow and tender feelings 

That which I called a moment seemed to last a hundred if not thousand years 

Yet, how can it be an ETERNITY when all it took was a blink of an eye…….. 

I wish that being with you lasted an ETERNITY 

So that I know not the feeling and the pain of a heartbreak 

But when I had to let you go, the pain of separation last forever 

For an entire lifetime 

For ETERNITY…… 

- M@t@Maya (© 11.11.11)

103. GREY.....

Grey…everything that I see 

With tearful and swollen eyes

Bleak…as if there’s no tomorrow 

When all the love dies 

Empty…that familiar old feeling 

As it is when void has taken over 

Weak…is the beating of this old heart 

Tired from the hurt that never gets better 

Thick…is the air that I breathe 

Filled with the anger that seethes 

Inside me waiting to be freed at the 

Slightest provocation, as light as the breeze 

Hot…is the raging fire that burns so deep 

Within my heart eager to settle this overdue 

Dispute and betrayal that eats into my soul 

And turns me into this monster out to get YOU 

For you had dared to break my heart 

Drown my hope, crush my dreams and take 

Away the only thing that matters to me...

My dignity

 - M@t@Maya (© 17-05-2011)

102. THE FACE IN THE DREAM

A shade of grey fleeting by my sleepy eyes

A whiff of an after-shave borne by the breeze

A soft caress on my cheek was indeed a surprise

A whisper of a word in my ear brought me peace

A face appeared in the dark recess of my mind

Somewhat familiar yet not recognized

A face that I've seen some where some time

Some how and some day I'll see in my life

An image that invoke warm tender feelings

A picture that tugged the line to my heart

A memory of the past that didn't want to be forgotten

A dream that reminded of a love torn apart

That was the FACE that keeps appearing

In a dream that keeps on occurring

- M@t@Maya (© 06-04-2010)

101. HEARTS ON FIRE

Ours are two hearts on fire

Burning bright like distant stars

Two bodies savoured by common desire

I am your Venus and you are my Mars
xxx

Ours are two souls of burning amber

burning deep in the cold windy night

consuming all our passion forever

lighting the skies in starlight bright
xxx

Ours are two minds working in tandem

brilliant sparks of colliding stars

A perfect match made in the heavens

Separable by no one, nothing, not even wars
xxx

Ours are two bodies - the Yin and Yang

Moulded out of finest treasures on Earth

Fitted to be together like a jigsaw puzzle

Separated by gender, by time and birth
xxx

Two hearts on fire burning with desire

Two minds collided to fuse into one

Two souls reunited like burning amber

Two bodies so passionate with love undone

- M@t@Maya (© 31-03-2009)